Glow, Baby, Glow

:D

I met some Jehovah's witnesses today! They came to my door. Wow. Thats never happened to me before.... maybe I'm just not usually home o_o; Anyway- they handed me a pamphlet about how God can even love me.... I guess I just kind of find it insulting that people think they need to bring me to God? I mean, ok, I might need salvation as much as the next person.... but to ASSUME that I need it.... o_O it's just kind of rude, right? It's not like Bibles are in short supply at the thrift store.... I'll read one myself, if I feel like it. I don't trust pamphlets about God. People take random bible-quotes way too out of context... But whatever. I'm not an asshole who hassles Jehovah's witnesses.... so I just took their pamphlet and said thanks and I'd look at it + find God.

Anyway. I'm home from Atlanta~ I don't go anywhere until November. So I'm making Halloween costumes this week. Kind of. I've started some anyway.

I don't know why I'm updating this thing. It just seemed like it'd been a long time.

Jehovah's witnesses! wow. :x they scared me~ Usually no one walks past my window- because it's on the inside part of the stairs.... @_@;;

I got my car fixed. The AC works now :D just in time for the weather to get cool~ durr Weird having AC again o_O I stopped noticing it kind of....



bleh. My head is still in that kind of... time zone free zone that happens after I travel. Even though I didn't leave eastern time zone to go to Atlanta... it just fucks up my schedule anyway. A combination of staying up too late too many days in a row, and getting up too early- being generally exhausted. And then we drove to this location so we could set up a bigger space- so I ended up passing out in the back of the van on the way home. I feel like a hibernating bear o__o; But good I guess. <3 now that I"ve had some sleep ~



z_z I'm tired but I know if I take a nap I'll be up all night~ damn

Today I took off work- for mental health reasons. I slept in until 2 something, and then cleaned my apartment :D. Sounds boring? I know.... but I'm so happy to be doing nothing for a minute- I can't even describe it right.

I went to the grocery store and bought some things and felt pretty great about life. Grocery stores make me feel kind of bi-polar. Sometimes I go in and I'm thrilled to look at packaged foods and enjoy other domestic people shopping around me and want to buy things like bread and vegetables and eggs.... you know the kinds of foods that you don't eat IMMEDIATELY- you just have at your house because you live there and have normal food items. Other times food shopping makes me totally morose and lonely and life hating. So at the risk of the later kinds of feelings- I avoid grocery stores for the most part- and pick up food at to-go restaurants and gas stations. But anyway- cleaning my apartment made me brave it- and it was the good kind of grocery day <3 so I bought a small watermelon.

I cleaned the closet (and bedroom and living room) and realized that I absolutely have a completely ungodly amount of clothes. And shoes. I honestly cannot continue to buy clothes at my current rate and expect them to fit in my house. So I'm either going to need to get a bigger apartment... or donate about 2/3 of my clothes to charity. My lease is up in september.... and I've thought about moving. I kind of want to have a porch with a back door instead of in the front like it is now..... but moving is a general pain in the ass- and I'll probably just stay another year to avoid the hassel.

Oh! And I won a contest online :D! yay! I entered a contest to win a free trip to NYC and see Crybaby on broadway. But the show closed early- so they are just writting me a check for 2,500. :D :D :D yay <3!! It's going in the Lasic eye surgery fund. I think it's just time to get it.... it's been around long enough by now. Seems safe enough to me. So ya, whenever I get a minute to research that- I'm going to go for it. Probably sometime in January.


I'm not sure when I'm leaving next.... I know I have Twin Cities coming up, and Maria keeps making sounds like she wants to drive the RV up there.... @_@;;;;;; DO NOT WANT. We'll see how that goes~


Also- I'm going through my fabric drawers and thinking about Halloween (already- whatever). I have a hideous amount of grey lace I'm not sure what do do with o_o;;

This is the best thing I've read on a myspace profile in a long time....


About me:
NO IAM NOT MARRIED, AND THERE IS ONLY ONE PERSON WHO HAS MY
HEART THAT IWOULD EVEN CONSIDER, BUT HE HAS ALOT TO CHANGE
IN HIS LIFE, LIKE GIVEUP A COUPLE OF HIS OTHER WOMEN YEAH HE IS
A BIG PLAYA. I DON'T WAITAROUND FOR HIM CUZ I STILL DO WHAT I
DO, BUT WHEN IT'S TIME I WILL DROPTHEM ALL. SO WHENEVER HE GETS
READY!!!! TWD1 I N D E P E N D E N TTHATS ME GOT MY OWN HOUSE
OWN CAR 2 JOBS WORK HARD IMA BAD BROAD!!!!!FA SHO!!! I DEPEND
ON ME!!!! DON'T HATE!

8,,,D uhm lol

I'm in Phoenix now. kind of bored. 

I'm Leaving for the UK in the morning :D.  I'm kind of nervous- but more excited. I've never been before.  I'm going to Blackpool- which by all accounts is a terrible city... but I'll reserve judgment until I see for myself.  I've just finished reading Neverwhere- and I'm really hoping to be sucked into the Underground....  or picked up by a TARDIS. One of the two.
 
We made some amazing evening dresses for this show- because we aren't allowed to vend anything other... no regular dance costumes. It's kind of bad for business- but I think its a good opportunity to focus outside of dancer-world for a minute.

And I dyed my hair dark again  8\  Because some punk whore effed up my color blocking.  I thought she'd be able to do it- cause she had so many colors in her hair. But she let the bleach blonde touch the dark purple- and I ended up with all these splotchy lavender pieces  ~_~;;;;  So instead of bleaching the shit out of it to bring it back- I just dyed it all dark brown/purple/reds.  And I like it- but it just feels kind of boring after the blonde.  8\  bleh. I'm not sold.  But now it's really -really- dark- so I'd have to go through several stages of those ugly medium colors to get it back and that's just too much work.



^ wrote that yesterday sometime o.o ...

Now I'm in the international terminal at Atlanta airport- leaving for Manchester in a few hours. I had enough miles to get bumped up to first class~ 8U yay!  I'm so tired- I'm going to have a drink, turn on a movie, and fall asleep immediately. Hopefully wake up on the runway in.  All of my movie watching of late has been on planes. Which is bad kind of... because I'm running out of options o_O. I watched National Treasure on the way here.  8|   It should win every award that it is possible to be nominated for. I've never seen such a great film in my life.


>_>


Last night was the comp after party. We were drunk at the Ritz Carlton- so we wandered around the hotel and posed for human reenactments of the paintings on the walls.  We practiced our Spanish asking the cleaning staff to take our pictures.  And then they even got in on some of the photos that needed more extras. Very obliging staff at the Ritz. Wow.  The art in there is seriously disturbing... all sorts of Victorian families.... the babies always look half dead, with heads at wrong angles. It was good times- very Trainspotting. But it's not on my camera.... 8(  If I ever see the photos I'll post- it's uhm... worth a thousand words.  Then Gigi took the jumper cables from the valet stand and put them on her boobs....   and they pretty well chased us off.  We ended up with our feet in the pool-  which was really amazing. I was wearing 5" silver platforms and wanted to amputate both feet at the ankles~


In conclusion- I should really cut myself off after 3 drinks... even though that seems fairly lightweight. That's just the way it is- and airport security is no fun with a hang over ~_~;



I'll be home on the 4th I think.  :B

I'm in Las Vegas now and I'm tired as shit.  We went to LAX (the club not the airport) 2 nights ago- and some ho stepped on my feet so badly that there was blood and possible breakage. She stepped on me like 4 times 8,D I wanted to punch her face- and I'm not a really violent person. BUT REALLY JUST STOP BITCH. @_@;;;;   uhm yeah- so my feet are hurting really bad.

We changed our flight again- and decided NOT to drive to LA  8,,,D yey. But now we have an extra day here- and I think Maria wants to go to the grand canyon  ??  @_@;;

It's so smoke-y here....  I sound like a man. It's awesome.  I'm just not used to everyone smoking indoors all the time ~  Smoke doesn't usually bother me- but it's so pervasive here. It's soaked into my skin & my eyeballs.


I'm reading a book about publicity and how to write press releases! I really like it. It's basically a list of shit that noobs do that annoy editors. haha. It's enlightening. But it pretty much seems like you can write a press release for WHATEVER YOU WANT.  8,,D   I'm also reading Neverwhere at the same time.... so it's an interesting mix.  Neverwhere is making me even more excited to go to England (end of May). I want to ride the tube 8D!


ok uhm.  I'm really just writting this so I can stall ... and put off packing slash actually standing on my mangled feet.   (AHHH WHORE D: !!!)


mrrr..... standing...   8|



I know I haven't updated anything in forever- and there really is interesting stuff going on in my life... but I can't remember any of it right now to write it down....  :B

does anyone know jack about designing hand bags? If so- is there a text book you'd recommend? I'm looking for the "9-heads" of hand bag design.... I need to learn everything I can about them :B Specifically- how to draw the technical flats. Please help me if you have any suggestions.

Also- if you know any bag sample makers in NY or LA- please please let me know. I've found a few through google- but if anyone has any personal experience- that would really help me out.

please please 8,,D <3!

I'm going to the costume design guild awards tonite :D  I'm excited.  I bought the hottest shoes ever at marciano- and I'm doing my hair all 1940s~  :D!

I love being in LA! even though it is cold here right now.... I can take it.  It's just a good feeling being here~ I'm so happy about opening a shop <3! and meeting the swarovski people tonite...  They sponsor so much shit. seriously. The need to sponsor our event in Budapest. That would make my year  @_@  I just have to make the network connections tonite and work it  >_<;;;

I think LA is the only place I would really want to live other than where I live now. The more I travel the more I love living in Tampa. Seriously. Its a great place. Its not annoying....  I can get around... there's stuff to do....

but LAs a close 2nd  <3  and I'm getting to know my way around here now too.

some lj generated haikus that are really speaking to me right now xD;;

uhmmm 4 strawberries yum
blaslkdfjllkslk lkjklj poor me i think i
will love me some snow


dogs and things o if
i don't actually
die before morning


going out to think
about him driving it to
work at one back in


bleh everything
about them is so forced
and crappy o bleh <--- xD wtf lol


well that was fun.

I watched Down With Love tonite. :D and now I'm eating chocolate~ yay.


But I can't find the charger for my camera- and its starting to look like I'm really going to have to clean my house to find it.... -_-;;;;; boo



http://cottonmonster.com/ <- these are so cute. I want one V_V why are they constantly sold out.... :| I like the Octopi best <3

In my ongoing struggle to do things other-than-work I drove to Tampa tonite during rush hour (AHHH >O!) The event I was looking for was some kind of canceled, and I ended up hopelessly lost in the ghetto. Steph phone-rescued me- but by the time I knew where I was again- I was so pissed off from all the driving that I took it out with some vicious shopping. FRUSTRATION LEVEL HIGH >O! but damnit I have some new shirts.

I was trying to go to an art class at Artists Unlimited... has anyone EVER actually been to this shit before? Its not really a class... just studio time with a cover charge... but whatever- it's something to do so that I feel proactive about my life- and creative in ways that don't involve ballgowns. (not bitching there- I love ballgowns. but I don't want to be consumed by rhinestones @_@ I needed a glitter break) I got the listing out of Creative Loafing online.... but apparently it's out of date (it SAID 01-23-08) because the whole place was locked down like a prison and they were not picking up the phones. :,D

Bleh I hate driving in Tampa so much ~! >___> what the fuck is wrong with that place 8,,,D



Also. There is no food in my house. >_> I never think about the fact that I might want to eat in the evenings when I'm leaving work... the normal time... 6ish.... Its only when I start to get MAD STARVING around 11 that I start thinking wow. I should really have gotten food back when something was open. Now my only choice is a frozen pizza from the 7-11 x_x;;; ew~ So I guess I'll just sleep instead.



I'm ... being a bitch. I'm taking out my frustration on the random myspacers.... It's their fault really... for writing me such retarded notes in the first place... but it's still bitchy. I think I'll cut myself off here :,,,D

z_z


www.passiveaggressivenotes.com <-- oh my god, amazing. I love humans so much X>

I feel like I haven't updated enough lately... so here's a survey.


( survey )

I didn't know Terry Gillaim did The Brother's Grimm movie xD;; ... Did that totally suck?




:BBB it's so pretty~ Why didn't I see this when it came out? I must have been completely uninterested.... weird. Usually I'm first in line for the decadent/ridiculous fairy tale genre 8,,D




What is your favorite fairytale (or myth?) that has NOT been made into a Disney movie? I'm bored & curious <3 Please tell me :D

uhm hello everyone, could you STOP DRIVING LIKE RETARDS PLEASE? Maybe it is the mad influx of northerners right now.... but ONE WOULD THINK that they would be -better- drivers actually- being more accustomed to hazards such as snow & ice or hills. What the hell, people -_-? I hate driving home from work, boo. 8( 8( 8(

The Sweeney Todd screener came today 8D! Yay! Magical presents from my mailbox <3 I love you.

( thoughts on the movie, this got a bit lengthy... )
on a Depp related note- John Waters' Crybaby is being adapted into a musical :D like Hairspray~ yay. I loved Crybaby and I'm sure that will be similarly huge <3 I don't have the movie though... I wonder if they have a copy at moviestop.... OR HALF.COM my favorite website ever. ALSO! I thought that Johnny Depp sang in Crybaby- but it turns out that's not the truth. James Intveld was the uncredited singing voice for Wade Walker~ ! Although I'm disillusioned, I'm also somewhat relieved that the Demon Barber of Fleet Street isn't singing in falsetto.



I'm really considering flying up to DC for a day just to see this production of Macbeth. Is that kind of lunatic? I think it must be.... but it's not that long of a flight, and I have some frequent flyer miles... 8\ I dunno. I'm thinking about it. Depends how the schedule all works out. I don't think March is packed for me.... so maybe 8D! I really want too... It's actually playing in Redbank, NJ in Feb.... but it's more of a pain in the ass to get around there- and I pretty much hate Baltimore-Philly-NJ 8,D



Man. This is turning out to be a super theatre dork post 8,D .......

can someone tell me the dates for NY market week this year? I know it's sometime jan/feb?  Like where people go buy shit wholesale for their boutique.  I know I can find it if I know what to look for- but I keep getting the dates for last year- so I just think it's easier to ask, cause I'm sure some of you know 8,D  thanks <3 

also. V_V;; I wish I knew some British people... wtf is the Western Mail? A newspaper?
....

there is a Kylie Minogue + Doctor Who poster FREE IN THE WESTERN MAIL on thurs. 8| want.



here's some pictures 8D


AHAHAHAHAHA. 8,D this show totally kills me.



8,D I love Kylie



I love Titanic in Space too

so basically- I want to move -_-; when my lease is up (ahaha, 8 months or something) my ass is out of here >O>!! My apartment nearly evicted me when I was out of town because they were charging me 35 extra dollars a month in rent... and I wasn't paying it- cause it's all auto set up to just send checks.... so I paid the same rent I've always paid. And after like 3 months they were calling me and sending leg breakers until I got back in the country and was like MAYBE YOU SHOULD READ MY LEASE?!?!?! And then they were all "....... oh. uh..... we'll take care of that." UHM YES YOU WILL THANKS. And take all these shitty notices off my door assholes!

Also. The guys that went into the attic left nasty grey insulation everywhere. EW! not acceptable.

And. I'm really sick of hauling my 70lb suitcase up and down the stairs 8,,,,D!! Not their fault- but seriously, I want something on the ground next.


AND TONITE >OO!!!!!!!!!! DAMNIT!!! The water is NOT ACTING RIGHT. there is no pressure at all. I turn the water on and it's good for about 2 seconds- and then dies off.... like there just is no more... and then if I let it build back up for 15 min- it will work again. But it's not even enough to brush my teeth in really- and I WANT A FREAKING SHOWER NOW. >OOOOOOOOO *rage* Not having a shower makes me cranky. I was so pissed off all day long and I couldn't really thing of why... because in all other respects my life is great and I'm a happy person. 8| NO SHOWER = UNHAPPY 8| 8| 8| 8| And what the hell am I going to do in the morning? I have to go to work!! I WILL NOT GO TO WORK! I will call in >_> I *have* to wash my hair before I am going back to work. Or anywhere else actually. It's a requirement I have of myself. To Bathe. >________>;


Soo~ I'm going out of town again. I missed the annual trip to SC last year- and I'm morally obligated to go this year.... I think it will be good. I hope so anyway 8,D. Whatever. I'm going to take the laptop- so at least I'll have internet access~ Leaving to go up there on the 24th. Not sure when we are coming back. probably whatever the following weekend is? Not really sure yet.

Then in Jan I'm going to Hawaii (i hope >.< - it's not 100% booked yet....) and then to NY- sometime in late jan/early feb. 8,D FREEZING! But it's been pretty cold here the past few days too.... I forgot to turn my heat on last night and I was freezing my ass off when I woke up this morning 8,,,D what the hell. And I couldn't get a shower. And I still can't get a shower. I'm so pissed I might just get a hotel. There's a La Quinta on the way to work.... I wonder if they have an hourly rate? I just want to ask.... 8,,,,,,,,D *dies*





Also- Christmas is close enough that it is stressing me out now. 8,D It seems so much less stressful around Thanksgiving, or Halloween. I'm sure I'd be less stressed if I had a shower.

leaving again at 4am for Vegas 8U! Then LA. gone till the 15th (be back @ 7:30pm ish)

my cell works now that I'm back in the country though :D yay

my time schedule is so messed up right now :> what the hell


my brother posted this on facebook :>

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FPWyOA1tmgc

cute :D

uhm I will never give up tiaras. >__>


I'll be home tomorrow night :D and I leave again for Vegas wed morning.

I'm having an amazing time 8D I have tons of pictures~ coming soon :D ::D :D :D :D

things to do before I leave (7:30 tomorrow morning)

- pack (o shit, I own no long sleeved shirts. or socks)
- dishes (or there will be some serious sink funk when I get back)
- take a shower (f'real. wash. hair. now.)
- sleep (maybe)


I'm going to Budapest in the morning. I fly through JFK and Paris 8,D. I travel every weekend- so I don't know why I am particularly jittery about this one.... It's my first time traveling anywhere in Europe though, so I'm really excited about it. It's going to be ASS FREEZING COLD 8,,,,,,,,,,DDDDDDDDDDDDD. I have a big jacket, and I have snow boots, but I am particularly concerned about my legs freezing off.... How does one deal with that? I just have normal Florida person pants to wear... Should I have bought a ski suit? What do northern people do so their legs don't freeze through their jeans? I have some soccer socks from the thrift store that are thigh high... maybe I will live in them. 8|

It's suposed to be 30 degrees out and 93% humidity. THATS SNOW RIGHT? 888888DDDDDDDDDD HO HO HO! ITS CHRISTMASTIME!! I WILL LOVE ME SOME SNOW IF I AM INSIDE SOMEWHERE WARM LOOKING OUT THE WINDOW! Or it could be freezing rain o_o; sleet. o__o;; and I KNOW about Hungarian drivers SON OF A BITCH 8((((((


look at some places we are going 8D!









I can thaw out at underground turkish baths in crystal caves somewhere in the Carpathian Mountains. With friggin amazing coffee. And I'm going to eat food that has paprika and sour cream ALL THE HELL OVER IT. So I'm coming back fat! watchout yall. >_> Winter clothes are the most unflattering things known to God.... You can't tell what anyone looks like underneath that shit anyway. So I'm sampling every restaurant I find in the city. 8DDDDD




I really wonder if getting snowed all over is going to make me want to kill myself, or put me in MORE of a Christmas spirit? Possibly both?

I wonder where the shit I could fit a Christmas tree inside this apartment? o_o I never really feel that pang of desire to be a Domestic Goddess anytime other than Christmas. 8,D *snort* OBVIOUSLY. Maybe I should start with the dishes 8,DDD;;;;;;;;;

ow, my liver hurts  8U

today I turned on my heater for the first time this year~ brr. I woke up FREEZING :U!! But... the smell of the heater being on (I don't know... maybe your heater doesn't smell.... whatever) reminded me of Christmas, and kind of made me think that I should decorate for Christmas. Coincidentally, I bought all of these sparkley glitter covered Christmas Plants at Micheal's to glue onto dresses- but the glitter peals off- so they are trash for dresses.... so maybe they can go in my house instead. But they are untraditional colors... who does aqua and purple and copper for Christmas? Under the Sea Christmas *o*~ But it makes a great ballroom outfit.... damnit V_V;;; I need to get some spray lacquer and MAKE the pieces of glitter stay on.

I downloaded some holiday music 8D! YAY! Fortunately I don't work in retail and won't want to kill myself by the end of the season due to overexposure. I seriously couldn't take that much spirit.


I'm still kind of sick~ I got really enthusiastic and decided I was recovered yesterday- but now today is bad again. X( !! I'm feeling marginally better now... but I had to leave work again~ and it's just all really terrible timing. I'm drinking tea and eating some oatmeal though :> so hopefully tomorrow will be like this day didn't even happen 8,D! I'M BORED WITH BEING SICK!


Julia & I are doing yoga tomorrow morning at 8am (is it 8am? or 8:30?). So if you feel inclined- plz call me for directions early in the morning 8,D and you can yoga too.



I really want some Christmas lolcats.

Is it wrong to dye white cats with kool-aid? It doesn't really hurt them.... but does it hurt their little brains o_o



(ps- if I seem to have skipped Thanksgiving- it's cause I'll be traveling so uhmmmm yeah, I skipped it. Don't worry. I'm grateful everyday xD )








.............
I just heard a train 8DDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!! And I can't think of where there are any train tracks around here 8,,,,D wow.